From the memoirs of Chris Brennan, the first woman of Steve Jobs (Part 3 final)

Nearing the end of our translation of an extract of the new book by Chris Brennan about her memories of Steve Jobs. I always knew that Steve was not the easiest man, but after the revelations Chris I learned about it a lot. He was even more cynical and ambiguous than I thought, at least in his youth.

Today - the translation of the last part of the passage of the new book by Chris Brennan about her memories in life with Steve. Be sure to read the first two parts, if you have not done so.

From the memoirs of Chris Brennan, the first woman of Steve Jobs (Part 1)

From the memoirs of Chris Brennan, the first woman of Steve Jobs (Part 2)

But above all, it felt like Jobs samovozvelichivnie own. I do not watch their nightly conversations with the master, but sometimes could hear his own sayings about himself. Some of them were really nice and he was glad to share them with me. But something in it was severely distorted. Steve felt spiritually advanced, but emotionally was not ready for such "enlightenment" and I was wondering why the Master Kobun did not realize it.

I was careful with it, because really enlightened people never done it boasted and I felt that they, along with Kobunom strongly passionate about each other. Steve was my boyfriend, not a spiritual guru and he became entangled in his attitude toward me. He tried to bring our relationship to fulfill their special roles, the supreme destination. In the end, maybe he was jealous of me because of my own strength of will and vision. What he needed was a complete control over all or nothing.

One evening, we will have a party in our rented house in Cupertino. I do not remember who was at the event, probably Bill [Fernandez], WHO, Daniel and their friends. In the morning there was a strange case: Steve woke up, looked around and asked oschurivayas - what should we do with "it"? I did not understand what he meant, until it became clear that he was referring to the dirty dishes.

That we had to take care of her - for it is the task was too "low" poshiba. He joined the elite world where not exchanged for little things like washing dishes. I had to wash it and I did it with great displeasure. This put me in the wrong position in relation to Steve, I did not have to perform a service role for him. I do not understand how he could take care of himself with a sense of self-importance.

A few weeks after the party and Steve complained that my forehead was too many wrinkles. I'm Irish and French roots, and have a thin skin of the Irish is considered normal. I'm only slightly raised eyebrow and appeared fine lines on the face. Steve pointed out this flaw and it was similar to my mother constantly leveled my forehead. I did not like this trait in his mom and even more so in a guy.

I certainly understand that the appearance - not my strong point. But it puzzled me, because before Steve had always admired my appearance. So, now I'm out of order? I was very upset and crying with resentment.

Now I understand that in this way, Steve learned to rule, bringing negative images of himself to others. He tried to convince me that I'm not like what I am in reality. This greatly confused me, and I felt that he rejected me.

Apple has grown and changed Steve and his company. But not for the better. Of frank boyish behavior, it has become just vicious. For example, when we went to the restaurant, he could sarcastic and rude to talk with the staff. When we went inside, he might ask, "Two?" And he replied, "No, fifteen!" And stuff like that. He behaved badly.

Years later, many of the "manners" in the behavior of Steve disappeared. But in general, it remains quite complicated man

It seemed that every institution must know all their preferences by heart, and staff should be literally "lick it", appearing only at the moment when it is really needed.

Of course, Steve was a kind of savage, because it is believed that his genius was to be recognized as early as 22 years old.

Steve has always been a great non-conformist, but he could not cope with its growing power-hungry. In fact, he was a despot with a "plus." Perfection has always been a feature of Steve's, but now he used it as a weapon. He is always looking for perfection, and when not finding him, had behaved badly, bringing their anger on others.

As the first woman to Steve, I experienced a lot of negative consequences of his behavior. I realized that between awesome and awful a very fine line.

When all the creature Steve met with mine, it becomes unstable creatively. The integrity of his person violated. And then I lost the gift of speech and breath. I tried to adapt to its changes, but its negative aspects outweighed all its value for me ...

Chris, along with their daughter Lisa. They parted ways with Steve at the end of the 77th, when Brennan had not had time to give birth

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We hope you like our passage translated from the book of Chris. It will be released in late October in English, and who knows, maybe it will soon be translated into Russian. It would be very interesting to read it, do not you think?

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